| Friday, January 20th, 2006 |
| 4:48 pm |
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| Friday, January 13th, 2006 |
| 11:22 am |
mmmmm
I like having a boyfriend. It's cool. No longer virgin Charlotte. Just thought I'd share...... |
| Friday, January 6th, 2006 |
| 1:49 am |
I Love my kitty cat
I wish I could take him away with me. Nevermind. I have decided I really want someone's babies. Yum. Current Mood:  crazy |
| Thursday, January 5th, 2006 |
| 2:49 am |
Bugger
Already broken one or more of my resolutions. Current Mood:  cranky |
| Wednesday, January 4th, 2006 |
| 4:53 pm |
New Years Resolutions
Right ok, here are my new years resolutions that I will try and stick to. 1) Join the uni Gym- I want a flat stomach damn it!! 2) Have fun - as much fun as possible ie. Hussy around 3) Write more ie. do some more creative stuff that I haven't done in a while 4) Try to stop dwelling on things, especially if they are no good for me eg. Will 5) Try to love myself a bit more and try to think positively Well........there you go. Current Mood:  contemplative |
| Monday, January 2nd, 2006 |
| 8:46 pm |
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| Thursday, December 29th, 2005 |
| 6:51 pm |
Stressed out
I am *really* stressed at the moment. About fuck all. Well not fuck all, but the usual. And it's actualy making me feel physically sick now. I iwsh I had more to do to take my mind off of stuff. Bugger. Current Mood:  tired |
| 1:25 am |
Why can't i be normal?
why, i mean there must be something seriously wrong with me. why do i get fixated on people? why can't i just be normal? why do i think so much? why do i analyse everything? why can't i block things out? why can't i just get over it? why? why did he treat me that way? why couldn't things have gone right for once? why do i feel like the one in the wrong when it's him. why do i always blame myself? why do i always let people make me feel bad about being who i am? sorry rambeling, a lot of it personal but hey ho its my log. Current Mood: tired |
| Wednesday, December 28th, 2005 |
| 12:29 am |
Cold toes
Feeling pissed off and confused. Not to meantion horny. |
| Monday, December 26th, 2005 |
| 11:48 pm |
i hate marmite
Don't have much to say for myself really. Other than I am horny and that I get no privacy here. Ho ho ho. Current Mood: tired |
| Sunday, December 25th, 2005 |
| 9:20 pm |
Merry Christmas everyone!!
Have a great Christmas!! Don't get too drunk my luvers!! Got my digital camera and it's brill, can't stop playing with it. Horny on Christmas day damn it!!! xxx Current Mood: crazy |
| Friday, December 23rd, 2005 |
| 3:51 pm |
Shiver me timbers
Everbody is fecking arguing here. It pisses me off. It's supposed to be Christmas for goodness sake you'd think they would try and give it a rest for a few days. My mum and dad are arguing, my bro and my dad, my bro and my sister.......I want to kill someone, I could scream right now. My dad is going to be in a right arsey mood when he gets back. It's all over the fact that there were something wrong with the pipes for the washing machine (thats what my mum told my dad). He was like no, your being stupid etc. He made her feel so crap she came into my room crying. So my bro decided he would change the pipes so we didnt have to call out the person again. And it turns out my mum was right, there was something wrong with the pipes cos its working now the pipes have been changed. When my dad found out he hit the roof. Got really nasty apparently. Anyway he's gone out with my ma but I \know as soon as he gets back it will kick off again. Now my bro and sis are arguing bout the christmas tree.......... Current Mood: aggravated |
| Tuesday, December 20th, 2005 |
| 4:41 pm |
so tired
Yep...........tired. Tis my 21st tommorow. Woohoo!! Not that I am really doing anything anyway. Current Mood: tired |
| Thursday, December 8th, 2005 |
| 4:43 pm |
God
I'm going to be single for the rest of my life...... If that be so then I am going to haver as much fun as possible. I don't see why I should waste any more time on men who clearly don't feel the same for me. I am going to go out and have fun. If i want to act like I slag then I will. I have had enough of being miss goody two shoes. I had fun the other night snogging random people. Rache I snogged twice, a guy I had never see before in my life came up to me and snogged me, then I got off with Rache and her friends. It was fun. Need another night like that. Current Mood: contemplative |
| Wednesday, December 7th, 2005 |
| 4:37 pm |
Have you ever wanted to hurt yourself just to make the pain go away? I have got another week and a bit here and I just don't know if I can face it. Everywhere (nearly) reminds me of Will, the sub, the dinning hall, the bloody bus stop where we kissed, everything. God he must have known how easy it was to hurt me. I must have been like a bloody lamb to the slaughter. He obviously had no idea how much i liked him. Or maybe he did and used it against me. I don't know. I will never know if he even meant a word of it. After months of wanting him I feel like shit. I guess part of me knew he was going to mess me around. There were signs which I blatantly ignored cos I thought I wanted to get to know him and give him a chance. My friends warned me but I didn't listen. I don't think there is much that can chear me up at the moment. The feeling was wanting to escape is paramount. He doesn't give a fuck about me, if he did then he would have talked to me not carried on ignoring me. I have done nothing wrong but I have been made to feel like i have. He assumed I wanted a relationship. Really to begin with all I wanted was a shag but after going on that date and him being 'genuine' (genuine my arse)I did want more. If he had turned around to me and said lets shag then I probably wouldn't feel like I do now. I know there are things I could have done differently, but he knew I was shy. When he said what he said about the relationship thing I did not know what to say. Appart from anything else I fealt like that he couldn't care less. He totally confused me. I hate him but part of me still likes him and hopes that he will suddenly start talking to me again and help me by clarifying the truth. I know this won't happen. Especially after the last text I sent him. I just lost it. I couldn't believe that he was ignoring me and that he was seeing somebody else at the same time he had his tounge down my throat. I am so sick of crying and getting angry over this, I just want it all to go away. I am so tired and I just don't have much emotional energy left in me. Current Mood:  distressed |
| Friday, December 2nd, 2005 |
| 7:52 pm |
hahaha
Got the sack. Current Mood:  amused |
| 10:13 am |
it's ok
will is an asshole so now i have got over liking him. shame i still want to rip his clothes off....... Current Mood: groggy |
| Tuesday, November 29th, 2005 |
| 12:56 pm |
twatted
grrrrrrrrrrrrrr i am so fucking angry. really pissed off. no words can describe how pissed off i am. im also confused beyond belief. it would have been ok if i hadn't have actually liked the guy. (will that is). damn him for being so nice on the date then sticking his tounge down my throat. he bloody well made the first move not me. grrrrrrrr Current Mood:  confused |
| Monday, November 28th, 2005 |
| 2:58 pm |
Fuck sake
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!! Been screwed over by Will fucking twat Current Mood:  heartbroken |
| Tuesday, November 22nd, 2005 |
| 11:50 am |
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